I bathe in my own self loathing

I long to be someone else

I put my body through the hell my hearts been through

I don't need your love

I don't need your sympathy

How can i be myself when I hate everything that I am

To welcome death like it was an old friend

Was like bringing my life to its own end

I gave you my other half when you were broken in two

You fixed yourself and stranded me in the past we pursued

You tortured my mind and twisted me to the image you craved

I'll never be the same

Just to leave me to die on the road we paved

So tell me

Where the fuck were you when i needed you most you fucking bitch

Nowhere to be found

Abuse of authority spreading the disease

Lack of self control and doing as they please

The system is a failure and everything’s fucked

They're sounding the siren we’re shit out of luck

Hide behind the badge to put the innocent in line

Line em up and spread fire with a closed mind

Hide behind the badge thats tainted with crime

There’s nowhere left to hide we’re all running out of time

You bleed blue but there’s red on the pavement

So many people needing something to believe in

Keepers of the peace bringing danger to our streets

They’ll do anything to keep our people down on their knees

You bleed blue but there’s red on the pavement

So many people needing something to believe in

Keepers of the peace bringing danger to our streets

They’ll do anything to keep our people down on their knees

How does it feel being painted as the villain now

Abusing their power keeping everyone afraid

Send the pigs to the slaughter they’re guilty of foul play

The evidence is there everyone can see

ignore it any longer put a date on our doomsday

You bleed blue but there’s red on the pavement

So many people needing something to believe in

Keepers of the peace bringing danger to our streets

They’ll do anything to keep our people down on their knees

You bleed blue but there’s red on the pavement

So many people needing something to believe in

Keepers of the peace bringing danger to our streets

They’ll do anything to keep our people down on their knees

This is an injustice on those who seek justice

When the ones were meant to trust cannot be trusted

Punish the corrupted

I see everything in black and white

I need to be brought back to life

Everything i touch begins to break

All the food I eat has lost its taste

I'm all alone in a world of hate

Looking back on my life I acknowledge my mistakes

I did my best to find my saving grace

Surrounded by people who lied to my face

And kept me around for their personal gain

Your colors shine brightly in the dark

Your intentions are masked behind your vibrance

As blind as i am i can still see

The hatred behind your silence

I'm starting to sink

Further than before

I feel like i'm drowning

I don't know who I am anymore

Brendan:

I forced myself to be everything you need

Only defined by my tragedy

Tear me apart limb by limb

I gave you all i had to give

Your colors shine brightly in the dark

Your intentions are masked behind your vibrance

As blind as i am i can still see

The hatred behind your silence

Brendan:

I revisit my memories and watch in disbelief

I tried to erase my past

But my past erased me

I wish I could say I cheated death

But being alive was all in my head

Its as if my life was a necessary sacrifice

To ensure my mind was thoroughly desensitized

I lost everything when I lost you

My heavy heart encumbered me I couldn’t feel a fucking thing

My vacant chest was filled with what was left of our past

You were always first to me and I was always last

I’m staring at the wall just lying in wait

For the day I can get up and fix this mistake

I want to love myself but I'm starting to love less

But it was you that made me loveless

As time passed by I felt our hearts grow apart

You engraved your name into mine but you were never mine

I’m staring at the wall just lying in wait

For the day i can get up and fix this mistake

I want to love myself but I'm starting to love less

But it was you that made me loveless

When you left a piece of me went missing

I'd sew my heart to yours if you didn't rip the seams

I went through hell to find my heaven

But my heaven wasn't looking for me

You took everything I felt from me

You took my sanity

I'm no longer who I was

I fucking hate who I have become

I can't think straight when I hear your name

I feel I'm the one to blame when it should be you who should be ashamed

I went through hell and back to love myself

All because you couldn’t keep your hands to yourself

No one believed me

No one could see me

You couldn't even hear me out

I was forced to live my life in hiding

That all ends today

It's about time I break my silence

I was just another face in the crowd

A child in distress trapped in the echo

Everywhere I went you were close behind

I couldn't get away no matter how hard I tried

Every time I heard footsteps id run and hide

the monster in my closet wasn’t just in my mind

No one believed me

No one could see me

You couldn't even hear me out

I was forced to live my life in hiding

That all ends today

It's about time I break my silence

I can't get close to anyone

Without feeling regret

I can forgive you but I assure you

I will never forget